The sun is shining and the birds are chirping. There’s still a chill in the air, but the warmer temperatures and bright atmosphere bring renewed hope. Spring is on its way. The sun will shine again.
Nothing is permanent: not happiness, not pain. This status quo will change too. You just have to live in the moment and find a way to make the most of every minute and experience you have.
The trees sway to the light breeze outside my window; the traffic sounds fade into the background. The world continues around me as I contemplate my place in it. I may not know G-d’s plan for me, but I can do the most that I can with what I have right now.
The pain and disappointments in my life serve as a springboard for me to keep pushing forward. I accept them with slight animosity, but what can I do? I’m human; humans prefer comfort.
My thoughts scatter on the page like paint thrown at a canvas. So much to ponder as I sit here contemplating what’s up next for me in my life.
I want to make a difference in the world. Mostly I wish to “unpause" this hopeless loop of Life. I desire to know what I can do differently to find The One who will make me complete so I can finally stop letting it distract me and stop obsessing over it. I want to continue with my life goals without having the distraction of this bottomless hole I need to fill…
Tomorrow is another day, another day of hope and of dreams. I hope that someday soon my tomorrow will be an answer for today.
In the battle of shidduchim, I am a warrior. Every day is a fight for sanity, for clarity, and peace of mind. This is an uncensored account of my shidduch trials and tribulations –– the often emotional, sometimes poetic, confessions of a shidduch dater –– my colorful musings and reflections from behind the lines.
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