In the battle of shidduchim, I am a warrior. Every day is a fight for sanity, for clarity, and peace of mind. This is an uncensored account of my shidduch trials and tribulations –– the often emotional, sometimes poetic, confessions of a shidduch dater –– my colorful musings and reflections from behind the lines.
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Tuesday, November 19, 2013
There's Something Great About Ambiguity: It's Really Confusing!
Not knowing, being completely and entirely foncused is super frustrating. Sometimes it's fun, you get to take things how they come, but usually, it makes me nervous...especially when things seem to be moving way faster than I think they should be. It's totally cool for someone to really like you and be obsessed with you, right?? I don't know about if it's cool in this situation though. There are so many things bothering me, but only one of them is even minutely concrete. What to do? Do I continue and hope that things work themselves out? Or do I stop this before it gets even more confusing? Feelings are bound to get hurt here, because I have this feeling in my gut that this isn't going to end with wedding bells. Yet, I'm sticking with it because I just don't know!!! There's so much going for it, but I think there may be almost equally as much going against it. I'm trying to be open-minded so I'm not shutting this down as of yet, but a part of me is saying that it's stupid to hold onto something when it may be pointless. Is it just me wanting to enjoy this while it lasts? I hate to string people along... Ahhh, I hate the pressure! Why can't it just be? It is whatever it is until it isn't anymore.
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